Now the ghost hunt was something extraordinary and while it rattled me to the core with fear, I wouldn’t have swapped the experience for anything.I finally confronted my worst fear and bravely led my own investigation to find out if there was a ghostly presence occupying the building I used to work in.I know that sceptics would easily dismiss my account of what went on, but there’s no doubting that the three of us on the investigation, as well as the other people who had lived and worked there, experienced events that were beyond normal.Sure a heightened sense of fear tends to make you more sensitive and jumpy, but I had the same feeling I had when I was there all those years ago.The scary bit is when you know it’s there by either sensing it or having the lights come on or hearing banging noises but you can’t actually see what it is.I’ve read about people who have died in sad and tragic circumstances and they get ‘trapped’ where they died or nearby because they don’t believe that they’ve died and therefore can’t move on and I feel this is the case with this ghost.It was and still is one of the most amazing and exhilarating experiences of my life and I’ll keep trying to explore it further as I’m sure more answers lie there.Even the lucid dreams were an amazing way to explore my different levels of awareness and consciousness, throwing up more questions than answers but encouraging me to keep exploring.I told you this journey wasn’t going to be normal!As far as internal validations go, this was the king pin.In other words, what I actually needed.After days of frustration, the moment I let go of my high expectations and trusted in the process it seems I allowed another process to take over, which gave me some of the most emotionally intense internal validations that I had had.When I stopped looking for evidence of the afterlife in the physical world and looked inside myself with open eyes, then I started to perceive something different.While the entire process was internal, meaning it was done through meditation and images in my mind’s eye, I finally got external validation of that process.While it’s not an accurate science, I definitely got close to identifying the three people I did the blind ‘one name only’ test with.However, I wasn’t done with using this method as I wanted to try an experiment that would put the entire internal verification process to the ultimate test.Seeing as trust is a big determining factor, how far could I push the trust and what if I pushed it too far?The battle between using my five physical senses for validation and using an internal cellular/emotional method of validation was definitely leaning towards the internal side.However, the internal experiences just kept coming and coming and I couldn’t just palm them off as figments of my imagination.Also that my grandma had popped up via the mediums and in my meditations all pointed to the one answer.I know sceptics and the like can easily dismiss personal internal experience because it can’t be physically verified, but does that negate the experience for me?Does that lessen the depth of the emotions and feelings of connection I felt to something I can’t quite explain?Should I dismiss it because it can’t be measured with electronic equipment and verified by an independent panel of judges?An analogy came to mind early one morning of how perception worked in trying to contact people who have died, which made it clearer in my mind.They were just written out of the script, perhaps referred to in future episodes, but they just disappeared never to be seen again.However, the person who played the character is still alive and well and enjoying breakfast somewhere on Hollywood Boulevard.But what if the actor that played the character suddenly rang on your doorbell and then asked for a cup of sugar?You’d most probably freak and think you’ve seen a ghost!This investigation is far from over.Would I ever hear from her or make contact?Andy and I had had many discussion about taking our first overseas holiday together.We instantly ruled out Bali, as it seemed every other Australian was there.We considered other Asian countries like Vietnam or Borneo but that’s as far as we got.It was just a discussion topic over a few glasses of red wine on the verandah while watching the sun go down.Anthony had even said, it’ll be like I was going back and tracing family roots, and for me, that would be Russia, Poland and the Middle East, certainly not Asia as we were planning.I forgot about it and put it out my mind.However, when we thought about it, the idea just seemed too busy.You’d need another holiday just to recover from it!